A fail on the micro umami, but a success overall

I’ve been thinking about the concept of failure and success in relation to time, and how all the pieces of a process fit together. For me, I have this secret (well, not-so-secret anymore) idea that I always get everything I ask for. It’s true!  The thing is, sometimes it takes a really long time, and in the micro-moment I don’t feel as though I’ve gotten it.

The best example?

When I was in 8th or 9th grade, I really wanted to compete in gymnastics. Penn Yan had no gymnastics team, but Canandaigua did. My mom worked in Canandaigua, so I thought it was totally reasonable for my parents to move there so I could do gymnastics (it didn’t happen).  But I think that I wanted to move there so badly, that it somehow became imprinted, and I’m actually moving there this summer, almost 20 years later (holy crap…that makes me sound old). Also, I will most definitely not be doing gymnastics, but I could totally transfer that obsession to yoga.

Anyway, I’m trying not to get caught up in the micro-moments or having each piece of something (life) fulfill or fit everything I want, but still use the idea of micro-movements or goals (i.e. still work towards things in the moment even if the action doesn’t seem like it will have any effect). Sometimes, I just work on small pieces, and trust they’ll all work together and yield results!

Two current examples:

Things don’t always turn out how we plan (how’s that for an understatement!), and we don’t always know how every little action fits into a bigger picture, but I still think it’s worth having that creation box full of wishes (more on that later), and days full of micro-movements going in the right direction.  What do you think?